Kill me

I feel sick

Sick of beeing here right now
Sick of not feeling your skin
Sick of the fact that I am here, and you're not
I feel pain
Pain that grows from the distance between us
Pain in the part of me wich no longer is with me
Pain in the way you're not here
What to do?
How to melt this wall of ice surrounding me?
How do I recover the lost grounds that you took from me?
How do I regain the feeling of your speech?
Please kill me
Kill me, if this is the way I'm supposed to live
Kill me, I can't sit here and not watch you
Kill me, Life isn't living if it isn't with you
Please bury me
Bury me deep inside your warm body
Bury me inside your thoughts
Bury and never dig me up again